sat..
ohmann,almost tis whole day sucks lah..
we got some juniors tat are..dotz..
n accordin to yh,my bag caused her to fall down>.<..
i feel damn sway lah..ystd was e mug incident n today tis..
sway
sway!
sway!!..
its either tat or today's yh retribution day..coz yh's buddy is e same pattern as her but even worse de..
she's a combination of so many ppl..
sth tells me yh has known a stalker?..
n then right,tat time its yh push bear n she fell on both knees n now,yh kena n fortunately,fell on one side of e knee..
anw,she was ex nice n brave n cont to go for mass despite tat..
n she happily help me donate $1 to e church..i still feel very xin teng for e fact tat i dun quite like church n im donatin $1?..i rather donate tat to my flag day tin lah;/..
waited with yh for her dad to come..then went with jonathan to dinner..
we had quite a long chat..n ya,it kinda woke me up..
after these past 7mths,sth in me feel really weird..
it felt sth was missin yet i noe not wat..
it felt i wanna go tian pu ta but juz feel too lazy..
however,e thing to note is tat,tat feelin is off n on..right now,i dun quite feel it..
but serisly speakin,its time i
learn how to let go of e memories n e hurt?..
learn how to accept all tat has happened?..
learn how to forgive?..
learn how to hav e right mindset n perception?..
learn how to pray more often?..
ahh rahh,i dun quite noe where to start n i feel kinda fearful..n durin tis whole period,i think der'll b many a times tat i will seem totally hypocrite n wat lah..
list an example:
im a damn suan-er towards religion now n i dun wana go everythin n anythin n even influence ppl tat..so previously when peggy ask me if she shld go church,i told her like not to go..
but if now,if im gonna start gettin back on track,i wld hav to tell her e right thing which is to go church..
however e irony is tat im tellin her e right thing to go church yet me mysef dun hav e xin qing n mood to go church both physically n spiritually..
n isnt tat = a hypocrite..
ahh rahh,i feel like im back to square one..
ohgod..ohmothermary..
if only i could die in front of you or you could just exactly tell me wat to do..
life's nv fair..
but why is it unfair to a point tat other catholics like yh need not experience tis at my age..
blur-ity makes one not mature..i aint mature enuf to experience it..
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At first sight marks one's destiny;
When the voyage comes to an end;
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8:44 AM
fri..
last paper for ca..n chem felt really stupid n cross-eyed>.<..i saw e qn was askin for carbon but turns out its askin for calcium..ahh rahh,how did i even saw it as carbon..
n then there was a qn tat appear exactly in a previous ws,n i didnt noe how to do tat qn until e t'cher was walkin arnd collectin e paper..n i bo chap n frantically do e qn..as a result,my hands were tremblin e whole period n they tremebled so badly n even when mx passed her stapler to me,i couldnt even grab hold of it>.<..
collected e maths n a maths results..n both felt unexpected,esp with e first..then after gettin e result:she told openly to mx sth like-see ur results still wan to talk and to chad she said sth like-see u talk less(n ur results r btr)..n then she gave me a damn queer look,a look tat showed like she was pek with me?..
its like im e one who drag e two of them and who caused them to do badly;/..
come to think of it,its no surprise if she kick me out of e class or kick me to e back one of these days lah..
anw,e maths was juz pure xing yun..i think prelim may not b alright..if im SERISLY NOT GONNA DO ANYTHIN BOUT VECTORS..
coz firstly,i dun hav e phy brain n for tat qn,i cant see fast enough where is it goin n stuff..
as such,its juz ex pek to listen in class n i completely switch off in class n i juz copy stuff from e board..n im now scared to do vectors hw la..
n then,i hav instilled in me a fear of vectors,so ye..
then aft sch had cca n evania's parents were ex nice to send jolyn to home n e rest to e mrt station^.^..n then headed to sandra's house to do lit script..
n i was so blur+clumsy tat i broke one of her house's mugs..im really sorry>.<..i was really ex off..
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When the voyage comes to an end;
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7:42 AM
Friday, February 15, 2008
sandra was sayin tat actually mds is all a dream..
how i wish life was like tis..tat all e unhappiness tat i hav to went thru is nothin but merely a dream..
n even if its happiness,it was nice while it lasted durin e dream..
hmm,perhaps come to think of it,wat we r goin thru now are all a dream n by e time we wake up,its alrdy e end of e journey of our life..
i really wish tat tis journey can quickly end or shld i say i hope to wake up from tis dream..i dun wanna to only wake up from e dream(s) within a dream;/..
n der's ca next week..my throats hurts ex badly n yet i gotta mug..tis serisly sucks lah..n tat freakin jovi still owes me show(s)..
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When the voyage comes to an end;
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7:51 AM
ahh rahh..
really damn ex sway..
keep gettin scoldin from fungus..
really dun understand if its coz she's gettin more strict with us or r we tis row juz becomin too wild..
those two behind us(accordin to yh)also talk but nv kena any scoldin..freak lah..
i think at tis rate,either mx or me'll b thrown to e back n made to sit with evania..
hmm,nvm,i shld go talk to her then?..
n she nearly wanna kick me n mx out of e class today lah..
i think e two of us really damn pro..
eh,come to think of it she enjoyed some peace ystd when i couldnt talk durin e last 2 periods..
i bet she's e one cursin me to get a sore throat so tat i'll shuddup durin her class..also not really my fault,if someone talk to me,be it from e back or wat,i'll reply de ah..unless im emo-ing or sick..
hmm,i guess wat i said previously bout fungus not givin a damn bout mx n i as long as we tiam is really ex true..
humph..ahh rahhhh..i dun feel like goin to e back of e class lah..
i wan someone to cast a spell on me to get a sore throat only durin math class^.^..
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When the voyage comes to an end;
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7:45 AM
Saturday, February 9, 2008
i think im really slackin？。。
困
超困
非常困
ahh,cant think of any ohters to describe..its 1++am n i still cant get over e first ss essay..shi bai tho i started at 11 lah..der's lit test to study for..
n bio quiz which's on some day tat im clueless..
eh,but serisly i wonder y im so ex tired lah..i slept so much yet i can b so tired..wat's e li liang tat's missin in me..
i nv used to b like tis de lah..ahh rahh..
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9:41 AM
Friday, February 8, 2008
yipee..i finish my hw except ss..
altho i hav been takin an ex long time for these hw..
ahh..sian lah..i really dun feel like doin ss,let alone readin up for ss;/..
n der's mass n rosary 2moro..i haven touch nor say e rosary for ages liao..
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9:16 AM
Thursday, February 7, 2008
cny serisly doesnt feels like cny..
its juz more like four days of hols lah..
ahh..i dun mind goin et's house to bai nian lah..at least it will make cny more meaningful?..
altho i dun quite like et..n her house seems pretty far..but now it feels it beats stayin at home n cant soak in e atmosphere..
and since its cny..im havin an ex hard time to tahan..im tryin to ren zhu from cursing and stuff..at least,not doing tat for e first four days..
and val day's comin..
juz went val day shoppin with yh n mass n its fun n heart aching..fun in e sense tat its shoppin time..heart aching in e sense tat i had to spend money..aiyah,it seems like everytime i needa spend money,my heart'll ache>.<..
i got val day present for him liao..but i noe not to give or not..
ahh rahh,it feels like tis whole thing is reversing..
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When the voyage comes to an end;
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8:05 AM
Friday, February 1, 2008
val day's comin..and i hav yet to get my list done up..
n si ren jovi ask me to get for jer..
hmm,i dun even noe wat to get for jer lah..
anw..e new s1s came to help for e mass;)..
i feel damn mean towards them lah..throwin them into such things when they juz merely adapt to e sch environment?..then again,we need to recruit asap,all thanks to lok-ness monster..
n lok-ness monster's pregnant again..and tis time im more than happy..yipee..dun need to see her freakin face for a quite some time when she's away for pregnancy leave..
ohya,and zita n i went to e catholic camp for a while to promote prayer n music min..act right,i only want to promote e latter but since we r SO-CALLED in both..so we might as well promote two of them..
n stop givin those shocked looks tat legion's closed down..no one wanna helps n all u ppl cld do is to give some shocked face like how cld this ever happen..
anw,e promotin part's ex paiseh..coz imo,e s1s were pretty sarcastic(by going awww,ooo n hahaha)frankly speakin,they did remind me of jeremy coz of wat they do..anw,e only kae part was tat dp did help a lil..conclusion:dp's btr than lok-ness monster..
i still rmb last yr..lok-ness monster didnt even go thru anythin n juz left us to our own devices..n we had to wait till sth like 7++，if not 8 juz to do promotin..
whereas dp helped zita n i argue so tat we cld do promotion at 5,or else we wld hav to wait till 6+..
n thankfully,gor-meh wasnt there for today's mass or else e poor s1s gals wld hav got scolded for nothin..n i still cant stand how she treat e guitar gals..e day she kena sack or stop t'chin will b e day i celebrate^.^..
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9:26 AM
sometimes i really wonder why did i hear a voice to tell me to do pure lit..
and truthly speakin,i did hear a voice to tell me not to drop hcl..
and it was this same voice that told me not to give up and let legion go..
i really wonder if that was the voice of god or mother mary..
but there out of the three i mentioned,i did two otherwise..
perhaps the only good thing out of lit is that i can relate the novel and play to my own life..
last year i was relatin tkm to my own life and this yr,for nds,i can relate what's happening around me to nds..
love's superficial
love's reckless
love's blind
love's illogical
love's child-like
love's inconstant
these are some of the qualities of love based on nds..
love's superficial..indeed its superficial..many a times,there are quite a number of people around me being so crazy in love..wooing a girl or to make someone like/love him/her..overtime,doesnt all these just becomes something on the surface..how many of us can actually be a real-life Puck who just watches from a corner and not get involved in any of this but laugh at the sillyness of what's going on..
love's reckless..because of love,i believe many of us would do things in a rash or just go completely emo without being able to sit down for a while to clear the mind..aint it always from the third party view that this whole of idea is seen most clearly..perhaps that's why Puck is such an impressionable character..
love's blind..beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..as such,the moment your blurred by this beauty,you wouldnt see any flaw(s) in the one you so-called love..moreover,didnt queen titania love an ass-head bottom?its perhaps when your blinded by love does one becomes reckless as well..
love's illogical..basically,its just a summary of the last two points..we do weird stuff out of love for another person..in the context of nds,didnt helena pursue demetrius into the woods out of love..likewise,there are people out there who are willing to wait their whole life for the person whom they love to love them back..
love's child-like..just like in nds,love could be immature and at other point,innocent..immature in the sense that those one moment lysander and demetrius love hermia and soon after,they love helena..innocent at the point whereby hermia is willing to elope to the woods,despite the consequences,with lysander..and even in the modern day,some of us could be having feelings for this person and before you know it,feelings has developed for another..or perhaps,its just so child-like as one will be willing to do something so pure for the one he/she loves..
love's inconstant..at this point of time,can we really pledge our whole life to love someone..even if we do make such a pledge,will it stay forever..will we keep to it..let's face it..it can never happen..even in nds,lysander swore his love to hermia but look what happen as the story progress,didnt he love helena..perhaps love is just to superficial to be constant..
if someone ask me who do you love now..or who do you really have feelings for..
i really don't know..perhaps i don't want to make a decision so quickly..perhaps i am really clueless especially after looking at those ideas of love..
perhaps being puck isnt so bad afterall(except for his mischievious side)..frankly speaking,puck reminds me of jeanette..
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When the voyage comes to an end;
Return lies within hasty keys.
4:12 AM