yucks yucks..bio prac..argh..i hate bio prac..hmm,actually ah,i hate all sorts of prac lah..as long gen sci you guan,i dun like it..cg was as usual bein her irritatin self..then mx keep sayin tat she's a pangseher..coz she pangseh chad or is it jeanette..n mx also said tat coz she pangseh me on sat..so ye,then both parties buay shuang..ohya..then when we were walkin to tis seats for bio..sandra ask me go to her table..n take e neos..then cg was like she give u sweets ah..then i say is give neos(after 2-3 time,then she heard it..coz i spoke quite soft ma)..n she was like when u all take de..i said recently..n she ask after exams tat day..n i said ya..(juz to shut her up)..then after bio was suppose to collect report book(n ohya,will post my results on asm blog since u wanna see..n mayb u shld post urs there too leh)..
..but went to e general office to collect key coz need go chapel to collect stuff..n also e.t. not there to give report book yet..then when i went to e office..sHe was there..
sHe:sylvia,so y did u come to e office
me:i need to get some stuff for my legion from e chapel
sHe:pass her e keys
bear bear de bro:*blah blah*pass her e keys
clerk:(gave me e keys)rmb to sign it..
then i blur..thought it was really e keys for chapel..end up was e keys to open e key box..was nearly goin out with e keys..n she was like..no..this key is for openin e box..(n guess wat,she act helped me open e key box n help me look for e right key)
bear de bro n sHe started chattin..
sHe:so has e legion thin bein solved
bear:ya,it has been solved.they r gonna combine with ijym
*blah blah*..tis part i like nv hear n so unclear but e next thin i heard was
sHe:she's very poor thin..her interact club close down n now her legion is like tat..but she can now use her leadership skills for ijym since it's sth she's familiar with(coz ijym is similar to svdp n interact)..
-i in a way acted blur..but also,coz i nv follow their whole convo..so i blur out liao-
bear de bro:sylvia is pretendin to not listen..
-n after tat,they started laughin-
..wahh..tis means wat,i m in ijym from now on??..legion is gonna close down??..i dun get it..i really dun get it..is it juz gonna die in my hands..die before my very eyes..e fear is so incomprehensible..
went to take e stuff..n returned e key..luckily n phew,none of e 2 ppl was there..
clerk is talkin on phone so i waited..after she finish talkin,
me:er,mdm blah blah,er,can i hav e key to open e key box..
clerk:rmb to sign out of e book n so fast ah..
me:orh n ya,coz only needed to go n get some stuff..
-returned e stuff needed n end of convo-
so ye,i guess u may be able to see wat i m tryin to show from here:how fake e clerk n bear de bro was in front of sHe..n if u cld go see my previous blog..u wld be able to noe more info regardin tis issue but unfortunately,
i juz realise my previous blog cannot be accessed anymore..i feel very heart pain..very heart ache..though i noe memories(as in e painful ones)tat r etched in one's heart cannot be erased..but havin those memories on e blog r so special..a feelin tat aint no words can describe..
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10:52 AM
Monday, May 28, 2007
woke up pretty late again..n had to chiong out of e house,as usual..n was late in meetin chadni n jeanette..then met mx..n after met e rest..n went to eat..after lunch,went off le..
den went home n super pissed lah..someone called me n asked..do u noe tis guy..he say he pass msg for u n *ahem*..i knew who tat guy is..but i juz denied knowin him..or else..tat freakin person who call me will juz keep goin on n on..den he ask u keep smsin *ahem*..u in love with *ahem* arh??..so to shut him up,i said siao..n then he ask r u smsin *ahem* now..n to shut him for e last time,i said no lah..wahh..he super wat lah..i guess he's juz a poor little kid..who's so lonely..tat's resortin to tis to get attention..or not,he muz be ex ba-gua..but i super pissed..coz it's e 2nd time in e week..then 2 person from e same freakin sch who pek me le lah..or shld i say 3 ppl instead..(includin e guy who say tat he pass msg for me n *ahem*..)
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5:33 AM
1.a.m.everythin is so quiet..everyone's all asleep..i was startin on my maths..after a while,a blanket of sian-ness covered me..i started to wonder y u were doin..started to think bout e past..i really wanted to give it a last chance..
finally,after a long struggle n also,out of so much sian-ness,i sent u a msg from my munm's phone..not revealin who m i..u keep on guessin..till i reveal thru my smin style tat i m sylvia..n in e end,we then realise tat there was a misunderstandin..
u lost ur phone on thurs..n only got it back on sat n u send me sms on sat to tell me bout it..unfortunately,my phone(mayb coz it juz undergo repair)nv got to receive it..n tat freakin nick also cant do ppl a nice favour to tell me at church nor msg me bout it..
at tat moment,where i finally understood e whole thin..my chinese music was playin a super sadsong..n at tat very moment,i juz feel like cryin..as to y i wanna cry,i hav no idea..
i ask u today if u were surprise y i after such a long time also "nv reply ur msg on sat"..n u say u were n u thought tat i was angry or sth..wat u were thinkin,was also somewat i was thinkin..i was kept thinkin wat was happenin over at ur side..
though e air is finally cleared at 1++.a.m..but it seems weird..part of me do wanna go on msgin..to carry on forever..but e other seems to not want to..seems not wanna go thru another time when my mind seems to be in a fluster..ahhhh,how i wish i could just re-wind e past..
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5:07 AM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
aiyoh..prelim de oral is tis fri..n guess wat,i nv study anythin at on today..
i told myself tat i wanna study today..end up nv get anythin done..coz i woke up at 11.45(which is e latest i ever had)..then went to eat..afterwards,mum send sis to tutition..n i was at home..so i watched tv till 4.30++..den use com..n then talk on e phone with agnes..n now use com again..
see..i m so shi bai..i will laugh if i nv pass my tis time de oral..
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7:38 AM
i wish i hadnt went to find out e truth for myself..now tat i noe e truth,i feel so much terrible..i dun noe y tis has happen..but i really hope to noe wat is it tat is happenin over at ur side..n becoz of u..i feel very distracted today..even if e book is in front of me,i still wont be able to study..coz i will think of u..think of e past..i m even resortin to goin out with frens 2moro..so tat i will hav some distraction..e pain in my heart is of indefinability already..i really wanna forget..really wanna re-wind e past..wanna forget那些你和我所度过的夜晚。。可是我做不到，每当深夜来临时，我总会想起那段时间。。
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3:32 AM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
it's sunday le..n i m ex pek..by jeff lah..screw him lah..sai him lah..wahh,he super chao wat..go say my eng damn bad..like he's ex pro like tat..if it's someone like sandra or solomon(e ex pro in eng de)say tat to me..i accept..but it's like excuz me,who r u??..okay,i admit..my eng is ex broken esp in sms,letter,bloggin n stuff..but u need not go show ur *** right..excuz me,pls dun behav like a mummy's boy..though i guess ur *** sure side u coz u r e only boy in e house..but so wat..boy jiu hen liao bu qi meh..i dun believe tat we gals cant do wat u guys can do..n there r things tat we gals can do..but u guys cant..so snap out of it,will u..it's ex irritatin n wat..n ohya,guess i shld tHaNk u for lettin me noe ur real personality today..n tis r 4 words(which i m gonna leave it in short form)is my present to u for ur b'day-AGBG..oh u noe wat,i rmb u r a pure lit student..eng n lit muz be ex pro de hor..go decipher e meanin as to y i use red to write tis post..lit students r suppose to analyse e writer's style,aint they??..ohya,mr pro in eng..i really doubt if u r really pro in ur eng..or r u juz actin as though u r pro in eng..as all ur vocab of vulgarities n stuff r ex ex lan..so u r juz tryin to suan me??..if tat's e case,i hope u seriously go jian tao jian tao yi xia hor..lian ur juniors n even sister is better than u hor..n eh,so wat ur eng is chao ex pro n mayb ur lit is ex pro too..but if ur moral values is chao ex lan..it's back to square one ma..
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10:16 AM
i thought i will be able to forget na duan shi jian..but whenever i look at e past stuff i receive from u,i realise i m seriously not able..memories of wat happen in e past will juz flow to my head..perharps coz tis is e longest period of time tat i had with someone..perhaps,coz e no of stuff tat i receive from u is so many..perhaps,u was always e one i told to,anythin tat happen to me..
i really wanna get over tis but i cant seem to do it(even till now,i somehow still unable to forget e shortest period of time tat i had)..i wan try delete those last lot of stuff u send mebut i cant brin myself to do it..or not will be every time i view e msg once again before deletin,i feel very xin suan..or shld i keep them as memories..n every time i see an _____-______,i think of u..ahhhh..i feel so ex confused..ohya,i juz realise..e song on my blog now..actually fits in perfectly with how i m feelin lah..yi shi de mei hao..
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6:16 AM
really really tirin;i nearly wanted to sleep at mass..
woke up ex early..coz dad wanna go out early n i wanted a lift..den i met e other 3 at bukit batok station..n eva,i wan kill u le..u cld actually overslept..aiyoh u ah,but anyway,we made our way to spi..n we were late again..juz a little earlier than last time though..heehee..
**A**E*,READ TIS PART AH!-i was tryin e whole time to ask n beg cg to go..she agreed to go de lor
on e purple line de train..cg made a call to her dad..n it was tis call tat changed my thinkin bout her..e truth is she hasnt changed a bit since we broke off as frens in s1..she was still bein tat way to her dad(i dun really wanna explain..coz it's juz horrid)..n she was gettin her dad to fetch her from spi when she say she agree to go le..PANGSEHER!!I M QUITE PISSED..
oi,those who wan her to go..go ask her urself..i hav enough le hor..ask n beg fo e past wk,she say k de..end up last moment,pangseh..some1 close told me tat she's such a person..but i didnt really bear tat in mind..but now i noe le..
u noe wat.,after her phone call with her dad,i realise we wont be able to work out for long..she's bound to show her true colours in a matter of time..n when tat time comes..my pm or display name will be-tryin to free myself..for those who noe me in s1..will noe i did tat coz tat time i was havin an ex horrible time with her..
e bible thin at spi tis time was pretty much e same as last time..e bad thin was it ended a bit late..so i gotta chion to woodlands..
reach causeway point at 12.30pm..n i was on e phone with doro from e time i board e bus from spi there till i collect my hp..heehee,finally my phone is alright..i missed it so much lah..all my contacts..heehee,by e time it was ready..it was 12.55..so went to 7-11 n grabbed a drink den to old chang kee to grab food n off to sji i was..
some pangseher left me alone..but quite k lah..coz e whole time i was packin my bag..n callin my sis to ask her which qns i needa do for maths..n also,smsin..
met jefferson n jonas n their junior..den went for curia..kinda malutatin leh..i also feel stupid goin lah..shld hav pon it..den i can go home n sleep..anyway,i was tryin to do a maths..but so difficult tat i was stuck at e 1st qn lah..n then i still had to left early..which was e most malutatin part..luckily 2day attendance was low..n i so shld not hav left early..end up i only geta miss 1hr of cat class..wanted to miss 1.5hr of it lah..somemore,i still need to get jeff to help me buy e book..i noe he sure not happy de lor..surprisingly,he cld be ****..lol..
den on e way to church,tried doin math..but not much luck too..n i hate e walk to church..it's so long lah..walk till sian le..then on e way there,i keep askin myself y did i put myself thru so much extra trouble..
cat class was alright..except for sleepiness..same goes for mass..ohya,i cant wait to try my hand at altar-servin..heehee..
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5:56 AM
Friday, May 25, 2007
i knew tis day'll come..n as it was approachin,i was thinkin how i wld actually face it..someonce once tell me to enjoy it while it lasts..aiyah,but i dun think i cld do so..it was sth tat i rather not begin..now tat it has happened n eventually ended,i guess i gotta pick up e pieces n try not to think back..but to say such a thin is easy..but to do it..it's really hard..
perharps..n i hope e wound will heal with time..as to whether i hope it can happen again,i dare not wish to ponder bout it..coz i doubt i can cope with it physically..n mentally,i somehow dun wan tis to be sth of pain..which will be etched in my heart forevermore..
but it was truly great knowin u,i guess..
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8:14 AM
aiyoh,i m so ex tired..gonna make tis a short post..n chion off le..
i m so ex lucky..with my class position n level position..i really wldnt dare to blieve it..but also coz they combine with my ca1,tat's y..also,tis time e lit students as a whole did much better than e physics student..
i guess i really oughta count my blessin..n tis voice deep down there..did tell me sth which's true-ur marks will turn out fine..
aiyah,y is it i can see it with marks but not with lom??..wat's e diff??..y ain't it happenin with lom..
n i m so ex blur..i nearly missed my stop while comin home on 2 incidents..phew,luckily i nv lah..aiyah,muz try to gear up for upcomin oral exam le..i also forgot to check tat i hav all my documents before i go collect my hp..end up,i pretty much made a wasted trip lah..
mayb e only part tat was worthwhile was tat..i realised there's tis centre called SOLOMON LEARNING CENTRE..so funny lah..mayb e eng there ex pro since solomon de eng so pro..lol..
n n yipee,lok-ness monster n dp actually agree to hav altar servers..yipee,female altar-servers..my very wish..i really hope i get a chance to do it..
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6:03 AM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
我很想，好想改变我的字体，说的容易，要做好难、好难哦！为了今年的O水准考试，真的要试一试下一番工夫。。我不知是否会成功，但我始终还是得试一下，既然华文部门的HOD在这次的考试中酸我到那么惨。。
我真的不想假期来临。。因为到时就有口试考试了。。口试是我在考试中最害怕的部分了。。哎呀，我看，到时，哪位考我的老师坐在那里瞪着我，而我呢，便会低着头，一直说er,erm,um,aa。。
哎呀，真是命苦啊！。。怎么树木能倒在哪么多人的头上，就是不会倒在我的？？。。好不公平啊！！
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3:56 AM
yipee,my own hp set is finally repaired le..heehee,maybe i'll go down 2moro after hcl class ba..after so long..it finally is alright..i hope all my contacts wont grow wings n fly away..
aiyah,but 2day also ex sway..zhi hao guai myself for stayin up late till 1..so end up no sleep=tiredness..n on top of tat,e past few nights i had not sleep early..so was ex tired..so on e way home with her,i switched off while watchin her play nintendo ds..n she good la she,alighted e bus also didnt tell me nor woke me up..
so end up when i woke up,i was at bukit panjang on bus 963..argh..i was thinkin if i shld get down in front of bukit panjang plaza or take to bukit panjang interchange..den i decided to stop in front of e plaza..afterall,i saw a bus-stop opp e plaza..wahh,when i alighted,i realised i was ex ex lucky lah..coz i at tat moment then realise choc took 963 from woodlands so 963 actually went to woodlands interchange de..phew,i alighted or else,i wld most prob go back to my sleepin n end up in woodlands interchange..
eh,mayb i shld go woodlands..then from there go jb..after tat then go e place where tree collapse..n let e tree collapse on me..heehee..
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3:26 AM
Monday, May 21, 2007
i m so ex pro in my handwritin..chinese t'cher complain,ss n hist t'cher complain..(i seriously cant believe mrs xlbt also complain lah n not only tat fail me coz of it-.-""),lit t'cher(confirm de),n lck too(he freakingly went to deduct my marks for poor presentation*sob*)
ohya,surprisingly,eng t'cher nv complain..heehee^_^..
kk,time to get started on my cca commitments..or shld i say i shld drop all of them le..my marks r horrible..i also dun quite noe how to tell my mum..if i tell her,she sure wan me to drop..n surprisingly for e first time,i m pretty willing to do so leh..
or aint i..aiyah,wo shi zhong hai shi kou ying xin ruan..y cant i be more harsh n give up once n for all..it'll end my misery,wont it??..
..at times when ppl can enjoy time with their frens,i hav to be there busy plannin or else sort out stuff..
..at times when ppl can think of how they are gonna enjoy themselves,i hav to worry n cry my heart out bcoz i think of those stuff..
..is it worth it or not..i noe i owe my blessings to u all..but to go thru tis all,i rather not hav them..
perharps or shld i say seriously deep inside me,there's a part a me which wanna cont on,to push on n to help it survive,but i m really scared n afraid..i m frightened tat all these will die in my hands..n e worst thin is i m not gettin support..not even from my family;"(
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3:11 AM
Friday, May 18, 2007
ahh..2moro still gotta wake up early..go all e way to e east lah..i rmb tellin myself tat i dun wan do so..yet y m i doin it?..humph..
ohya,results..kk,i tis time muz do sth bout my handwritin n improve it..e chinese t'cher who mark it was ex sarcastic n my marks flew away bcoz of it..aiyah,expected de lor..for sci,e t'chers nv complain on e papers..but inside their heart,they sure mai yuan de lor..ohya,then we had some sai(sci)enrichment..n tat freakin dp sway sway sit bside me..-.-""..make me cant use my hp..n when she juz took a bench n sit beside me,i had my hp hidden in my jacket which was in between my pinafore..so uneasy lah..aiyoh,she ex nice..of all seats muz come sit beside me..n be extra-.-""..
aiyah,but alk another one also..make us go for some bible quiz thin..when sps also not goin-.-""humph..
ohya,for my sci,i very contended with my marks..considerin e fact tat i always slack..n if u really count e time i study..for chem,i study e day before,then for bio,i studied 1 or 2 chap a few weeks before exam(coz tat time i wu liao)..n on e day revise a bit..so a lot of e stuff i had to base it on wat i learnt for ca1..n also wat i learn for those tests..
aiyah,time to sleep le..how i wish i 2moro can really get loss n vanish=p..but i noe got christabel,sure ex hard..she's like so worried tat we'll end up in geylang..aiyoh..somemore,she at first tell me to relax..-.-"..
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8:11 AM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
i think there's seriously sth wrong with me..i slept at 2 on tue night n woke up at around 6 on wed..then for wed night,i slept at 4 n woke up at 8.45 e next day..argh..then wat's worse is in e day,i feel so ex tired..
ohya,today ex enjoyable though pretty tirin..sandra n i had to chion out of e house in order to meet..it started with my bad..coz i was on e phone n didnt keep track of time..when i realise it was close to 11..den i end phone call n chion like siao..end up cause sandra to chion too..n then we met jeanie n jeanette at orchard mrt..ate at long john..tried_____-______..but failed..coz no one picked up-.-""..then went action city..n jeanette bought cup keychain n sandra bought keychains..n we walked around e area,went HMV..n one more place(but i cant rmb le)..ltr went to kinokuniya..n bought writin paper..i nv wld hav ever tot i wld really buy them..n thanks thanks jeanie so much for sharin cost with me^_^..after which,we took a break at mac n went back to action city to get more keychains..n look at other stuff..
aiyah,then coz gotta go home since gonna go for mass,so left e place at around 4..n jeanette left coz her mum wans her to be home..n for e other 2,they also decide to go home too..
aiyoh..now already 11.05,though i feel tired n sleepy..but dun noe y dun wan switch off..
n ohmy ohmy,2moro's results day..bio sure die till ex nice..so i m sure i can win e bet with meixian,agnes,jazlyn n solomon..heehee..
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7:57 AM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
hmm,got some ppl tell me tat my blog's very sad..so i shall make tis post a happy one..
these past 2 days of exams..was more light hearted..n is also for these 2 papers tat mx actually finish e exams..charles,u r so gonna regret tat u didnt bet for tis subject=p..i think u better start savin money le..coz my handwritin for those subs suck ex badly..tat i wonder if i can understand it..n meixian didnt finish e exams..heehee..
so today went out with jeanette,chadni,sandra,shobana,jeanie n meixian..we had to tiong's mac to hav lunch-cum-breakfast..n then window-shop..i wanna get my hands on S.H.E.'s new album-PLAY..*sob*..but e price's so ex..it's $20.95..guess i hav to wait till my birthday ba..ohya,then went to take neo..very fun..after which,took mrt n jeanette n i stop at clementi..we didnt went IMM with them coz jeanette,bein e guai gal,needed to go home to do her art..lol..while i wanted to go check out e price of e album..n also,i noe i cant resist e temptation if i go to IMM..i wld sure end up buyin lots of thin..n i noe i cant afford to..coz i m broke le..*sob*..
we did went to check out e price n it costs $9.90..but there was a lot of stuff missin for e DVD coz it's e china's version..argghh..which one shld i get..e $20.95 or $9.90??..
ohya,i think someone's heart muz be breakin coz bridget nv come along..n if u happen to wonder y..it's coz they cant stand their irritatingness..
n for these 2 days of exam,i forgot to brin wallet on mon..n on tue,i rmbed to brin everythin..but i think i somewat screwed up my paper..
ohwell..wish me all e best for next week's checkin of papers..esp bio n those tat my handwritin.........
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1:13 AM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
2nd posts for e day..it seems funny how sometimes..photos can show how happy or close u r to tat person..lookin at e neos tat agnes n i took n then lookin at e ones tat e chao CuTe gal take..i realise tat my days r somewat mian qiang de..e ones tat i took with agnes r smile zhong dai smile..but for e other..it's like smile zhong dai zhe yi zhong bitterness,tong ku ness..
ohya,if u happen to be readin tis,ye,tis's my frank opinion..i m ponderin if i shld let u hav these photos..coz with these or not..it doesnt really matter..somehow e s1 incident still cant be completely erased from my mind..
like i happened to stop at oppo beauty world tat day,then memories of wat e CuTe gal did tat day juz came to my mind..n it's totally sick n disgustin..
i m hopin someone could buy these over from me..
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9:48 AM
there r so many doubts runnin thru my head..so many fears..
deep within me,there's sth tat tells me to slack n not care bout anythin..
afterall,wat do i get from all e commitment?
indefinable physical and emotional pain..
but no matter how much i try to slack like siao..to not care..it somehow wont work..my heart still cares for my commitment..
like i intend for my prayer ministry,i m thinkin of juz stoppin e s3 prayer duty here..coz it's so hard gettin them to say..i m juz tired..even some other ppl already give up le..wat's e point of me continuin on.
then for music ministry,i will juz hand over everythin to marianne..hopin tat it'll be alright..
for interact,doin things to e minimum n pushin to e last minute..
n for legion,closin down e whole cca..
i keep wonderin n wonderin if comin to stc was e right choice or not..i noe i shld not be doin tis..but i cant help questionin mother mary..cant help questionin god..
u were e one who blessed me with such results for PSLE..blessed me with a passion for mother mary..yet y muz u be e one to stop me from my dreams..to give me nightmare in s1..let me experience endless pain at e beginnin..n indefinable n everlastin pain throughout my whole of s2,esp at e end of my s2 yr n made me see some truth which i nv ever wan to know,nv ever wan to see..n when i made tat choice at e end of s2,n unsure if it was right..u give me a glimpse of hope n took it away from me at e start of s3..wat's e meanin of all tis..i m really very tired..very sick of all tis already..
i wld thank u once more if u could do me one favour-take away my life..it's pretty meaningless i find..coz i also dun noe when i m headin..i hope tis road of exams juz runs on..but i noe it's impossible..but i noe it's possible for u to take away my life..
2moro's some rite of invitation thing for confirmation..i m like juz goin for e sake of goin..but frankly,there's tis part of me who feel like givin up e religion due to e great emotional n physical pain inflicted on me..
< [P]ooh* [L]urver.
Follow the notes upon a journey;
At first sight marks one's destiny;
When the voyage comes to an end;
Return lies within hasty keys.
7:49 AM
Friday, May 11, 2007
my blog account is so super screwed..n for e asm account..i hav been tryin since i came back home but to no avail..argh..i badly wanna update tat one..since it's my turn..hmm,let me juz blog how e week of exams was for me..
it was terrible..can some nice soul pls turn me into a vegetable??..
n also everday of e exams,i was chao blur..or either tat my exams screw up ex ex badly..
eng paper-left my keys n pocket money at home
chinese paper-left wallet at home
ss n a maths paper-left my hp on e bus
chem n lit paper-nearly left my hp in sch for good
bio n hist paper-screwed them up ex ex ex ex badly..i cant rmb anythin..n watever i tried studyin didnt went in,as such nothin came out..heehee..
i left e math 1 n 2 on mon n tue..wonder wat will i screw up or wat will i forgot to bring lor..
ohya..my handwritin..i think e guvment shld organise e messiest handwritin competition..then if i send in e handwritin tat i used for exams..sure win de;)..it's so horrible..esp with ss..i think i may not even understand wat i write..i pray n hope tat mrs xlbt understand..same goes for my chinese..
also,bang bang's so gonna kill me for my lit..heehee..my handwritin supposedly improve le..but then when i realise not enough time..i chiong like siao le..
< [P]ooh* [L]urver.
Follow the notes upon a journey;
At first sight marks one's destiny;
When the voyage comes to an end;
Return lies within hasty keys.
9:00 AM