i wonder if i m possessed or not..after wat happen these 3 days..e more i think bout it,e more freaked out i am..
mon
e whole thing was super screwed up n i was super tired..even end up sleepin throughout half of e de-brief n my back was facing e hammer..
ystd
went to e indian temple n was givin them a tour with another 2 person..then tis girl tat was saying..there's sth beside u(or sth like tat)..i hear already,got a fright..coz who know tat person got third eye n really can see such things..then e girl said chill,there's nothin..i really hope there's nothin..
then today was even worse..
we went to our 2nd stop e indian temple..meipo say she was pointin at tis girl,then suddenly she saw e petal move..n of all places,she had to tell me when we were at e indian temple n e tour guide was still with us..when i heard it,i got a shock..i tried to distract myself by thinkin it was some sort of wind..but meipo say there's no wind..
nvm then..n afterwards went to e last stop,e taoist temple..
when we entered,i stepped on e step..then there's tis girl who said..u r not supposed to step..it's some kind of chinese tradition..upon hearing tat,i was worried tat i may hav offended sth..
we went around e place..then we stop in front of some incense stuff..meipo was e main guide n i helped to chip in here n there..n she was sayin tat these incense r used for some spirits thing..then there were 2 sec1s who looked kinda freaked out..i thought they saw sth n felt kinda freaked out as well..
then there is tis girl who pian pian needed to go toilet at e taoist temple..so bo bian,meipo,me n her friend went to accompany her..e toliet was rather wu lu somemore lah..so we started talkin..n tis sec 1 girl started telling us e weird thing tat happened ystd..
then after her friend was out..we proceeded to wait at e entrance of e temple..n she was still tellin us bout how a girl is somewat possessed..n it's super freaky..coz we were at e entrance n so when u look around,there's tis weird feeling..
later,she showed us photos tat she had taken then got sth extra inside..super freaky..then we tried to distract ourself by sayin it's e toilet roll holder..it worked for e first photo but when it came to e 2nd one..we had no idea..but still tried to distract ourselves..
when came back to sch..i was still freaked out..n i very xin bu zai yan..i didnt want n dare to step into e hall anymore..coz it's still in there..
si ren meipo..made me feel even worse..she was like sylvia,there's sth in e toilet tat's helpin u..there's sth black on ur face which means tat sth bad is happenin to u..wahh,e way she said made me even more worried..but at least she accompanied me back home..or not i wld hav died..
aiyah..really wished tat i hav went for tn instead..dun need to experience such frights lor..tis kind of frights..wonder when i can forget..even though last yr malyasia also got such frights but it was not so bad..coz it happened in malaysia..not like tis one..it actually happened in s'pore..in e sch..
i juz hoped i nv keena possessed or maybe i shld do wat almost all e sec1s did for protection..coz i entered e hall tis morn with my friend..but we didnt know anything bout wat happened last night yet..tis is super sway lah..
< [P]ooh* [L]urver.
Follow the notes upon a journey;
At first sight marks one's destiny;
When the voyage comes to an end;
Return lies within hasty keys.
3:17 AM
Thursday, March 8, 2007
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭
.:.english translation.:.
my sky is a little grey..my heart feels like a season with falling leaves,i dun know how to live through tis night..all e lights all r burned out..
y muz there be shocks one after another.i know e road'll not be smooth.but i dun know tat it be so tat rough.fear's engulfin me..
y muz u only tell me u may not be able to make it or dp may not be able to make..i do not blame u for bein vp of student council n guitar..it's juz tat i keep me thinkin bout e way u treat legion..i juz feel very pek n sian..u r worse than solomon lah..even tat bit of passion in me is destroyed by u already..i juz cant stand it tat u seem so wat..u like muz always wait for me to go find u then u break to me e bad news or let me know e updated info..is i so hard for u to sms me..or call me..then when i wanna reach u through calling or smsing..i end up talking to myself..
i know tat for our pdm to take up tis yr's acies is going to be difficult esp since u r holding so many posts..n since legion's ur 2nd cca..u may neglect it coz u can be too busy at times..i m juz sian n pek tat u hav tis kind of attitude..
though legion's ur 2nd cca..u may neglect it at times..nvm bout tis fact..coz i did experience it myself when i was handlin both..but legion's organisin an impt thing..ACIES leh!!it's ur legion,xiao jie n moreover,u r e pres..
i hav already neglected interact, prayer n music ministry le n when i told hoho tat i will be neglectin interact,i know she's kinda upset bout it but since she knows how much my religion means to me,she has let me off a bit..
u know wat..if u dun feel like carin bout tis,let me know so tat i can focus my energy on other area,k??..till now i havent got e sec 1s list up for prayer n music ministry..n still owe hoho e cip hrs..
thinkin bout how ur sis pangseh tanya when i was in sec 1..n u r juz repeatin hist again..so wat u will be able to make it in time for acies(as in e mass)..u r not there with me for preparation part..n tat's e crucial part..n tat marikitat..*sigh*..i hav no comments..
last yr de curia from aug till oct..i nv go coz cat class..i wonder if u really got go or not..or u were juz ponning it..i hope nv to know e truth coz i m sure e truth will hurt me even deeper..
it's funny how when we i put more energy on one cca,e other cca seem to be alright..or maybe it's juz alright on e surface..but there r actually a lot of probs tat needs to be seen to tat i juz throw it all e way back to my head n try my best to forget bout it..
sometimes,i really dun know to slack or be chao responsible..or maybe i shld really do a bit when e t'cher chase a bit..i feel so luan..
i juz hope to tahan till march..afterwhich i can take a super long break..
as for now..i think i shld guo yi tian n suan yi tian..most probably slackin as i go along ba..
to end off my post..it's tis chunk of chinese words..i dun wan to run away from my empty life..maybe e feelings r too familiar tat they r all gone..n u dun know how much i wish tat my life has some colours;any colour will do..n i m going round in circles..finally being able to say i love u..n with a little spark comes a fire..
我不再逃空虚日子
这一路都在熬
也许心情就是熟能生巧
你绝对想不到我多渴望
让生活染上一些颜料
是红橙黄或蓝靛紫都好
一圈一圈的围绕
终于能自在的坦承说爱你
火一点就燃烧
.:.ohya,e last 2 points doesnt really apply to my feelings..but since it's part of e chorus,i will juz add it in there le..
< [P]ooh* [L]urver.
Follow the notes upon a journey;
At first sight marks one's destiny;
When the voyage comes to an end;
Return lies within hasty keys.
3:44 AM
Thursday, March 1, 2007
it's bout a week since e curia le..but i shall juz blog blog it..
woke up at 8..was wondering how to get to sji from my home since e night before..luckily got tis person from cj very nice..willing to meet me at toh yi drive and go together..or not i will end up lost somewhere with my bad sense of direction..
i feel kinda guilty..was pressed for time so ended up studying DURING curia..purposely brought a bigger bag for tis so tat i can hide my book inside and study while e meeting was going on..heehee..ohya..my tat pres got come BUT SHE LIKE LEFT EVERYTHING FOR ME TO DO LAH..SAI HER LAH..
after tat,went to mass at sacred heart church..on e bus..wasnt really talkin coz busy studyin for stupid cheng yu test..memorising e meaning for e cheng yu..
then mass was fine..went for dinner le then went home to study..
finally ca r over..yipee..ended 1 day earlier than agnes n meipo..thought i will be bored to death..but meipo saw sth bout fei lun hai..then she wanted to get it..so end up we went to tiong, hav lunch n bought marshmallows n go see her fei lun hai stuff..she could not find it..so end up she bought tank's album..
i think i m going to keena handwriting tuition soon le..*sigh*..today lit class end early..so went to maths class first..n there were hardly a single soul so fungus started lecturing me..sylvia..if ur handwriting still so messy..i m going to deduct ur marks..it was so hard to read ur reflection and i dun wan to scrutiny it anymore...
normally i would just hear le..n let it enter one ear n go out another..but then my friend was looking at my direction n laughing at e way she describe it..n laughter is contagious..end up i also started giggling..n e lecture worsened..
tried my best to control it..n fungus finally stopped when she had said her piece of mind to me..aiyoh..next time i m not going early to a class or be one of e class to leave e class le lor..it would be even more malutating..if there had not been lesser people..
hist..handwriting sucks like hell..hope xlbt can read it..n tis bad handwriting is also to get back at her..she nearly caused us to learn e wrong chap lah..she told us ystd tat we were suppose to learn chap 1..then tis morn another hist t'cher tel us it's suppose to be chap 1 & 2..so sai lah..end up e e counciliors went to ask xlbt after their morn duty..n xlbt say she's e setter n so e chap she ask us to study is correct de..luckily corrcet..or not..all e hist girls from 3a n 3b wanna go stage a riot(as suggested by e girl beside me..aka meipo's 3rd wife)..
< [P]ooh* [L]urver.
Follow the notes upon a journey;
At first sight marks one's destiny;
When the voyage comes to an end;
Return lies within hasty keys.
1:41 AM